01.15.11- Upside down

There comes a time when your whole world as you know it gets turned upside down, and you sit there and wonder where did all the stability and cheerfulness go? All of a sudden there is chaos and you began to have feelings that you have never experienced. Perhaps you begin to think that where did things begin to change? Was this change made by you? Was this change created for a reason? There are a million questions that you feel may need to be answered.

Family and friends are very supportive of trying to help to figure out the answers to these questions. In reality, you are the only one who can figure it out. You may feel like there is a black hole trying to swallow you whole. But there is a light at the end of every tunnel. Assume it takes time for each question to be answered.

Putting together a puzzle with a thousand pieces that are similar in shape and size may take a while. That is just the take on life, fitting the questions with an answer once it is found. It is chaos when the pieces are scattered all over the place, but once the matches are found we will see the beautiful picture of life.

11.01.10- Everytime I look at you.

Every time I look at you I smile

Praying it will stay for a while.

You are in my thoughts and in my dreams

Things are always better than what they seem.

My heart races when I am around you

Maybe one day I will have a dream come true.

Every time I look at you I hide in disguise

My feelings are hard to mesmerize.

You make me notice I need to have an open heart

I am encouraged to move forward to have a new start.

My heart tells me one thing and my mind tells me another

Maybe one day we will be with each other.

Every time I look at you my feelings grow stronger

It makes me want to stay around a lot longer.

You always make me laugh

I imagine you could be my other half.

My heart is trying to stay in control

Maybe one day you’ll be my heart and soul.

♥ Jessica

11.01.10

01.03.09

There is a time in everyone's life when we turn to the lord. We open our hearts to believe that we are not alone. Sometimes it is difficult to explain how you feel to an individual. If we take the time to express our feelings out loud someone will listen. We cannot always depend on friends and family to understand our feelings. These feelings are one of a kind, so only our heart knows how to express them. 

Everyone has different beliefs, thoughts and opinions. I have learned that this isn't something I had to grow up with believing. This is just a time in my life where I am beginning to understand what it can do for me. Slowly, I am learning how to accept that I am not alone. I know that the lord is always with me. There is no reason for me to feel lonely. He is always by my side.

It is comforting to have someone by my side. It is nice to have someone to always talk to, although it is not necessary to have this. Although family and friends don’t always understand, they still care. Those who we can talk to without any issues are the ones who will be there if we need them. We must believe that GOD has a plan for everyone. Everyone's plan is different and unique. If I am meant to have this independence I must enjoy every moment and live my life to the fullest.

We must have no regrets and no fears. Life is like a learning experience where the past is the past because we have already experienced it. The present is a gift for us to enjoy while it is here. Then the future is something we must look forward experiencing in our lives. I do look forward to every day. I am blessed to be living on this earth and experiencing GOD's creation. All we need to do is believe we are in heaven on earth. 

<3Jessica 11.3.09